When I came down here to North Carolina, I had no idea what my life was going to unravel for me. Coming to a brand new job that holds a new career for me, I could only hope that those who watch me have the same confidence in me as I do for myself. You can only "sell" yourself so much, and all the rest is based on trust and confidence. And for me, I was selling myself on paper and a total of 6 1/2 hours of being observed. When you are hired for a full-time position, they are taking a huge leap themselves. Especially when they hire someone who has never had their own classroom.
Then when they hire me for a classroom, but I can't go into the room until the previous teacher leaves. It is awkward! I can't plan anything for the room because it is not my room, and I don't want to step on any toes. What are my boundaries? Should I go over and beyond to impress or stay a little low because the teacher has not left (and doesn't really want to leave) the room yet and will still be in the school?
So today I had my first glimpse into taking over the entire classroom. The day happened to play out that both teachers in a two's classroom were absent. I have definitely been in a room by myself, but this week I got to make some lesson outlines and fully implement them. On a day that was cloudy and dark, my co-teacher brightened my day!
I am trying to do my best. (Without over stepping my boundaries) It is difficult because I don't know where to look for feedback, but after today I learned there are individuals who have your back. My co-teacher wrote an e-mail to the main director complementing me. I am not perfect, but I am willing to learn and that is the key. Everyday I can only do better not worse.
Tomorrow is my first staff meeting (6:45 AM) WooHoo!! Well I am off to bed, because I have to sleep quick!
Have a good night and stay bright.
-Cyn'
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Hope that you are liking NC! Good luck as you continue to find where you fit in at your job. :)
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